Another lost girl

I’m scared. Today I’m 10 weeks and 1 day pregnant.

It’s my 5th pregnancy and I can only hold 1 child in my arms after all.. last pregnancy was heavy, a rollercoaster of emotion’s. But I gave birth to my son at 38weeks 1day.

The feeling that I’m gonna lose this baby is taking control over me. I didn’t have it until today. My next echo is 9 February.. I can’t take it until then. :(

It’s crazy how a pregnancy can change you.

Let’s hope for the best.

I went to the hospitaal today on Christmasday because I was losing a lot of blood for 2 days.

I can’t believe it that everything was good!

My baby is healthy, has a beating heart that I’ve heard for the first time. (I was crying)

So I’m 6 weeks now.

Friday I need to go for the second time.

Hi,

Omg, Yesterday the doctor said that I’m pregnant! I’m 4-5 weeks now.

My boyfriend doesn’t want the baby so I need to make a choice.

I want the baby, I wanna hold her or him in my arms .. I’m already talking to it. Putting my hands on my belly..

Hi,

It’s a long time ago..

My little one is needing his mommy a lot, So my days are full of taking care of him. Cuddling, kisses, playing, ..

Something happened today. So yesterday I was nauseous and I’ve hadn’t my period sinds October, already did some test also blood test. I was not pregnant.

Today 13/12/22 I’ve had a positive test! So at 2 o’clock I’m gonna go to the doctor for a blood test.

Wish me luck

My little Monkey is 3 months old and I can’t even imagine my life without him 🙈🥰

-UPDATE-

the last few weeks off my pregnancy were very hard.

I was so tired again, so me and my mother in law booked a vacation when I was 33 weeks. Vacation was great! I was so relaxed

When I was 37 weeks I was in a lot of pain.. a lot of headaches, we’ve got a couple doctors appointments but everything was okay.

38 weeks.. The headaches didn’t go over, my mother in law didn’t trust it.. So back to the hospital, i’ve got a check-up.. The results “ pregnancy poisoning “ It was better for me and the baby that I had to give birth the next day.

So April 21, I went to sleep with my in-laws because my mother-in-law went with me when I had to give birth.

April 22, 7 am I had to be in the hospital, I was 1cm dilated. At 8 am my water was broken.. Then I got an epuderale and around 12 pm I got a painkiller for the headache and then I took a nap through the contractions. When the midwife came to check an hour later, I was already 9 cm dilated. I panicked, I was not ready to give birth yet.That last cm didn’t go well, I was in pain,and then the midwife decided to help with that last cm. She helped me calm down together with my mother-in-law, tried to get that last cm away manually during a check-up. And then it started.. I had to push from the midwife, it was time for my little boy to come into the world. It was intense and difficult.I was so tired and mentally exhausted. My mother-in-law has supported and helped me enormously during the delivery, just like the midwives and the gynecologist. The delivery was intense and I didn’t feel the contractions anymore, my boy and I turned out to be in danger if I didn’t persevere. Because it took so long, they decided to intervene. 3.46 pm I gave birth to my sweet little son ‘Finn’. 52cm and 3.675gI cried very hard, during childbirth, after delivery. I was flooded with emotions..I’m suddenly a mom?My in-laws are madly in love with my little Finn. my little Finn is now 7 weeks old. I am a happy tired mommy. He is my happiness, my everything, I couldn’t even imagine what it was like without him. Now I’m going to enjoy my little miracle a little more.

Sometimes I miss being pregnant. It’s hard to share Finn with everyone.